God's Grace

"Every day we have is one more than we deserve."
-by Robert Redford from the movie Up Close and Personal
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after successfully redefending our thesis last tuesday, getting the signatures of our panel and our department head for our approval sheet, bookbinding the final document of our thesis, and verifying our grade at the registrar's office, it's finally official.. i will graduate this march 31.

to God be all the glory!
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so what now? i'm now about to enter the real world.. where they say the real battle begins. right now, i don't know actually what i'll do in the coming days, months.. i'm now in one of the biggest crossroads my life has ever been.

this is it. the desicions i will be making, the roads i'll be taking will surely affect my tomorrow. i am not sure of anything but Him.. that no matter what road i'd take, as long as He's there with me, i'm sure that everything's 'gonna be alright!
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all of what i am, what i have right now is because of His grace. i can't be proud of anything for without Him, i practically nothing.. as in zero.

"Just what is it in me?
sometimes I just don't know
what keeps me in your love
why you never let me go..

And though you're in me now
I fall and hurt you still
My Lord please show me how
to know just how you feel

You have forgiven me
too many times it seems
I feel I'm not what you might call
a worthy Christian after all
And though I love you so
temptation finds its way to me."

"Sometimes, God seems to push us to our limits. He tests us beyond our endurance because He has greater faith in us than we have in ourselves."
- a text message from my friend zee
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thesis redefense..
tomorrow is our last ditch stand.
make or break.
may God be with us.
..i know we're gonna pull through!
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kuya Gary: aaron, matanong nga kita..honestly..
me: ano yun kuya Gars?
kuya Gary: seryoso ka na ba talaga sa 'kanya'?
kuya Gary: kasi, baka biglang ibigay siya ng Lord sa 'yo tapos di mo pala kaya..

Hoping..

Finally, we finished our thesis program yesterday with the help of our friends abi and dennis =)

..we just hope that after the defense (which by the way would be our 2nd time and most probably, the last one!), the dean would include us in the list of students who will graduate this march 31.. (because there was a little bit complication in our case for our thesis grade which was "in progress" mark was already passed to him..)

we've done our part.

i know, God will do His..

Thanks again, abi and denz, my genius and loving friends!! thank you Lord for them!

Mala TeleSeye..

setting
last night.. at shangrila mall foodcourt.. we were having this youth leaders' meeting with zee.

scene
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van: mga what time matatapos 'tong meeting?
me: 'di ko sure eh.. mga 9-10 siguro.. bakit, what time ka ba susunduin ni dad mo?
van: di ako susunduin! asa bahay lang siya. magcocomute lang ako..

after knowing that she was gonna' go home alone, i really wanted to accompany her home.. and i thought, i had to..

during the meeting, i wrote a text message on my cell..
me: pax..(giving her my phone)
van: um? (got my cell and read my message..)
"pax..gus2 ktang ihatid."
van: ano ka ba? (laughing..) ok lang ako noh! (smiling and tapping my arm).. wag na.

after that, i didn't know what to say.. what i felt.. i just shut my mouth up, sighed and said to myself, "oh, ok.." .. i didn't fight for what i wanted that moment. yeah, it's me! the aaron i know.. who doesn't want to force things his way. force is not present in his vocabulary.

at the mrt, when we're about to go home, i was with karen because we were both northward and van was at our opposite waiting area side..
me: karen, gusto ko ihatid si vannie.
karen: oh, bakit ka pa nandito?! sabihin mo kaya! puntahan mo..
me: nasabi ko na.. tinawanan lang ako eh.. wag na raw.
karen: bahala ka..(smiling teasingly)

madali akong kausap.. kung ayaw mo eh di ayaw, kung wag, wag.

but my heart and mind kept on and didn't stop. i knew what i wanted that moment.. well, i always knew what i want.

then came her train.. (with the sound of my heart beat thumping very hard)

karen: ano? hatid mo ba? yan na ung train!
me: ok lang ba syo? o sige..(nodding)
karen: vannie! hatid ka raw ni aaron! (shouting at vannie on the other side of the mrt waiting section
van: ano? (laughing..)
me: wag ka muna sumakay! hintayin mo ko.. samahan kita! (running towards the escalator to go to the side she was on.)
van: (laughing pa ren..)

and the rest of the story was, well, what they say, history. it was my first time accompanying her to their home and it was indeed a night i'd always cherish
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sorry kung mababaw! hehe..

this is drama king (a.k.a. senti boy) now signing off..=)