I Can Only Imagine
by Bart Millard

I can only imagine what it will be like
When I walk by Your side
I can only imagine what my eyes will see
When Your Face is before me!
I can only imagine. I can only imagine.

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing Hallelujah? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!

I can only imagine, when that day comes
When I find myself standing in the Son.
I can only imagine, when all I will do,Is forever, forever worship You!
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!

I can only imagine!I can only imagine!
I can only imagine!I can only imagine!

I can only imagine,When all I will do is forever, forever worship You!
I can only imagine..
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Happy birthday to one of my closest friends ever, JayR.. Little did he know that throughout the years we've known each other, he has been one of my inspirations in life.. an influence on my character, a true friend whom i treasure and really love..

this poem is i think his latest one. i haven't read all of his literature compositions but i can say that this friend of mine is a good writer.. not only because of his choice of words or his metaphors that amazes and never fails to make me smile but most of all, because of his heart.. which, for me, matters most in every writer.

THE FORK
by Victor Policarpio

The road split into two
You stopped, not knowing where to go
I was running toward you
The other was waiting for you to follow

I was the sun
The other was a star
You never appreciated me until I'm gone
You always wanted to see the other even from afar

I made you smile
The other made you laugh
The other was worth all the while
I just wasn't enough

I am what you've always needed
Yet to me, you've always been blind
The other is what you've always wanted
You feel you're ahead, yet you're really just behind

Now let me take your hand
Don't look back from where you started
It's not a matter of where you stand
But in what direction you're headed.

Happy Birthday friend! May Godbless you more..

this is a post by abi. i liked and agreed on everything she had said. a thought on being cool. read this.

I think being cool is just being yourself without stepping on anyone's shoes.. it's about having the values.. it's about being happy with what you have and making the most out of it.. it's taking one step at a time and not getting all bummed up.. cool headed kung baga (hinde yung mayabang) .. no matter what your religion is.. no matter what your beliefs are.. chaka sino nagsabi ng being religious is uncool? masapak nga.. eheheh..

trying to be cool is uncool.. lalo nayung trying hard.. because it's not you who tells yourself you're cool but the people around you..

Amen.
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nagpakalbo ulit ako last monday. i loved that feeling everytime the air just hovers on top of my head and i feel that it's like my brain's being placed in front of an electric fan. hehe.. wala lang!

Thoughts (on Jeepney fare stuff..)

Last sunday, on the way to church, the jeepney driver questioned and did not accept my 4.50 peso fair (which i usually give because it's only 4.40 pesos for students, right?). The scenario went like this..

Me: Ma, bayad po oh.. (giving P4.50 to the driver)
Manong driver: (looks and counts the bills i gave) ..Ku--
Me: (anticipating it already) Studyante po..
Manong driver: Linggo ngayon ah! my pasok ba ngayon? masyado nyo na kaming pinapahirapan at kinakawawa nyan! wala namang pasok eh.. (and continues his fired up, passionate speech as i sat there at the back of the jeepney, listening to his sentiments calmly)

..so it went on like that. i didn't know when he actually stopped his "talk". he still continued even when i added a peso to give him the P5.50 fair he was asking..

but after i got off that jeepney, i realized that he had a point. students should pay the P5.50 ordinary pay when they are not actually out for school business.. and more, if it's not a school day, like sundays.. i know, many would argue about this but come to think of it, we are always prioritizing first our needs and our own goods, but what if we start to think first about others? especially those jeepney drivers who are working hard but seems like they aren't having enough income for themselves (not including the oil prices increases and those other price increase stuffs) ..just a suggestion.. after all, it's not just us,, everyone is having a hard time financially nowadays.

what only frustrates me with those jeepney drivers is that when you're a student and you give a 5 peso bill, they won't give you a 50 cents change anymore.. i don't want to generalize them.
it's just that since that fare increase, i'd never encountered a jeepney driver giving a 50 cents change to those 5 peso bills students are giving..

hai.. nagbabawian lang lahat tayo..

Last Sunday, this song was sung during the praise and worship in our church. This song really touched my heart that i almost cried while singing this.. i loved it.

Still

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father, You are king over the flood
I will be still and know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

..and though it may seem that all those difficulties and trials do not end, we always have to remember that our God is a never-ending God. He is bigger than any problem or obstacle you could ever think of.

we just have to cast everything unto Him. Let Him and be still!

Hear It When It Speaks

a new skill to develop..

Hearing and understanding not what actually has been said but what has not been said.

Come to think of it.. the mouth only utters the words that come from or inspired by the mind.
the words of the heart is a whole different story.

Hear the heart when it speaks.

Day Out..

after visiting my sister at her office in Makati, i spent the afternoon, hanging out at Greenbelt.. it really feels good to spend some time alone, thinking and remembering many things. hai.. senti na naman! hahaha. "i am lost in a boundless world... the misery of which i have long endured; the ecstasy, i have yet to discover... and no one can find me... but someday, somehow, someone will... and if he does, i know, i will awaken from this deep slumber that has long seized me in this world satiated with tranquility, obscurity, and melancholy; tranquility that has deafened me, obscurity that has blinded me, and melancholy that has sustained my very existence.." - Venessa Gomez

Dead End

i just arrived the dead end. i knew i would come to this point sooner or later, but my ever hopeful romantic heart just kept me goin on.. though i knew right from the very start that mr. probability was not really for me.. she gave me a letter which implied that the situation's not right anymore.. that i should now stop my sweet gestures, texts, letters for her.. no need to explain. one-way love scenario ain't really right, or should i say healthy. though the friendship's still there, it's still painful. the truth really hurts.

Game Time!

yeah! i'm finally back! ..after a week long stay in baguio and a 3 day stay in balayan, batangas, it's game time once again! and to start things off, we'll have our first class tomorrow at 7 in the morning..
=( haha.
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my 1 week stay in baguio would really be one of the most memorable things that happened to me ever. i felt God's touch and presence during the Jesus Revolution sessions there and now, i know, my life has changed once again. i'm starting over.. the old things had passed away, everything has become new.
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tomorrow would be the start of my last semester (hopefully..) as a college student. yeah, time flies by so fast.. really fast. seems that it's only my 1st year in college. everything's still clear. but reality is that 5 months and the real show will now begin. welcome to the big world.. to the real world.

i'm excited!