For Friendship's Sake

It's been awhile since i've watched a film and last sunday, i decided to go with my church friends to watch King Arthur.. For me,, the movie was great.. everything, from the cinematography down to the sounds, was superb.

There were many things i've learned from the film but the most i liked was that of friendship. I've realized that the value of friendship can never really be estimated. Lancelot, the first knight, fought for Arthur eventhough the former hated, blamed, and disbelieved the latter's faith and God,, eventhough he had this strong attraction with guinevere ( who was kinda' "tied" with Arthur already in the story..),, eventhough he had to risk his life with every battle they fought in,, eventhough there were no more reasons at all.. because he believed and valued the friendship he had with Arthur.. he was able to do all those things at the expense of losing his own life.. just because of friendship's sake.. just that.

just came out from my mind but it's somehow related to the value of friendship..
there has been this popular pang-asar among "men talks" which is always used whenever they make fun of their friend who was dumped by a certain girl.. it's "kaibigan lang pala" hirits.. yah, it's funny but looking at it in a deeper perspective, i see that the value of friendship is being underestimated compared with a boyfriend-girlfriend type of relationship.. so what if you were just a friend? ..let me rephrase it.. so what if you were a friend??

there are times when i believe more on the sincerity, genuinity, and love of friendship than of those bf-gf relationships have.. hey wait, i'm not against those.. what i'm trying to point out is that friendships must never really be taken for granted. Treasure them for they are the ones who will just be there when you need them most.. Cherish them.. love them.. always show them that you care..

i'm telling these things because in my life, i admit, i lack of those "material things",, but God had made me rich through the people He placed in my life.. they are my friends whom i am really grateful for and i won't trade any of them ( you know who you are..) for anything.. i love them and i can say that i can risk my life for their sake.. yah..

"..kaibigan lang pala.."
yah right..

Bhezfriend

Every morning when i wake up, the first thing I usually do (besides thankin' the Lord for giving me another day) is looking at my 3310 nokia cellphone (which is 2 years and 2 months old now, by the way..) , seeing if there were any text messages received while i was asleep and basically, knowing what time it is already.. but this morning after seeing no new message and already knowing what time it is, made me browse my inbox and go through some of the old messages in it..

"bes sori ngyn ko lng nbasa mesage mo.. wawa ka nmn! sna nandyan ako para my tga alalay ceo! sori la akong mgawa bes! ... phinga ka agd tpos lagyan mo ng tutpaste yng paa mo.. nalapnos ba balat mo? grbe b ung ngyari? bt nmn kc nbuhusan ka ngyn e?! p2ngan mo dn ng ice! tsk, bez ok kna b?"

[by the way, this text was a reply from my bestfriend after i texted her tellin' that i had an accident (or katangahan as my mom would prefer it to be called..) in our house when i "accidentally" bumped the lutuan, full of boiling soup, out of its place on the stove.. then the next thing i remembered was that i felt hell's furnace down my feet that moment.. hahaha.. speaking of clumsiness!]

after reading that old message from my bestfriend, i had my first smile of the day.. corny, it may seem but it made me feel again how nice it is to have someone who cares for you, just there and always makes you feel you're not alone when you need someone to be with, and basically never leaves you no matter what..

.. and just this morning had i realize how much i miss this girl.. the girl whom i first fell in love with.. Keren Keziah Bayaua, my bestfriend. lately, i may havn't shown her how much i care for her but i just hope that she would never forget that i will never be the same without her in my life.

God has really blessed my life in so many ways, and my bestfriend is one of those precious blessings i am truly grateful for..

Thank you Lord for her..

Friday Reminisce..

june 15, 2004
11:00pm

2 days ago, when she first asked me to make a write-up about her for their yearbook, i was so excited and eager to begin. i really didn't know why but maybe, it was just because i found an opportunity to say the things she hasn't heard from me yet, or maybe, it was just because i couldn't take the fact that my biggest crush was now asking me to write basically what she is to me.. my mind was running and my heart was jumping that time, and all i knew was that it was going to be easy and i was ready to get started..

.. but i was wrong..

Here i am right now, having a hard time figuring the words for her, struggling for the adjectives that would most fit her.. and i really thought, this was going to be easy for me.. considering that she's my "all-time favorite" and biggest crush for 4 years, my ever supportive prayer partner, and one of the few people in my heart that made my life worth living.. i don't know why this is so hard for me right now..

i know im too overwhelmed by what we have right now. Being close to her, being able to share with each other our own problems, feelings, and secrets, having the trust and confidence with the friendship we have, and just being there for each other leaves me asking God for nothing more..

i know she's one of God's precious and greatest gifts to me. Not only did she make my life better but she also added a reason why i should be grateful to the Lord and thus live life according to how He wanted it to be.

i know i love her so much.. everything about her makes me fall for her more and more each day. Every moment we spend together, every word she says, every tear that falls down from her eyes, every laugh and gesture she make, and everything she does are all engraved deep inside my heart.. and will all be cherished and treasured.. as long as i live..

..right now, these are the things im sure of, and i've come to realize that it would really be hard describing an extraordinary girl who had touched and made a difference to the life of an ordinary boy because there are no words in return to describe what she really is to him.

VENESSA GOMEZ..
the "she" of my life..
the woman i and will always love for the rest of my existence..

"The best use of life is love. The best expression of love is time. The best time to love is now" - Rick Warren

Crazy For This Girl

ahh.. feels good.. my 1st entry to my blog! haha.. just wana thank my good buddy
jay-r for inspiring me to express every feeling deep inside of me.. haha..
i love this life!
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hmm.. saturday afternoon, here at school, and i'm missin her badly..
..just rememberd this song..

She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I don't know why
But she's changed my mind

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
Why didn't I know what I know now

Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you

..yah,, i know right now that im definitely, totally crazy for her.. nothin more would i ask for than just to be with her someday.. somehow..