If Only...

Last night, after watching the movie "If Only" starring Jennifer Love Hewitt, i was reminded that we all really must live each day as if it's our last 'coz no one exactly knows when his or her time is up in this world. Personally, i figured it out that i have no much time left. From now on, i'm really going to maximize my time, for it is one of the most precious things we tend to take for granted oftentimes. In the end, i'm going to make sure that i won't be uttering that phrase "if only..."
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Speaking of If Only's stuff, these are some of those so called regrets I have...
If only...
1. I continued playing Basketball, not being dismayed by my height and not giving up on the circumstances i had that led my dream of becoming a basketball player a finished story...
2. I gave my programming lessons an extra effort on my part to study, practice, and master them...
3. I had the guts to approach her and ask her for a dance during her 18th birthday...
4. I wasn't intimidated and stopped by the things my c0-youth members were doing whenever she was around...
5. I wasn't proud sometimes...
6. I wasn't too tactless and I'd always thought of the right words to say at certain instances...
7. I took time everyday to talk to God and ask what His will for me is...

Thoughts

...just realized that it has already been 1 year since i've started this blog and it feels great! haha... For the year that had passed, i really felt good everytime i just let my heart speak out, without hesitations or whatsoever. This is my story, this is me.
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I was watching a late night news program last night and as usual, news is almost all about the "resign GMA" issue still. Honestly, i don't want to comment or air my opinion about the matter but when the field reporter of that particular news program came to interview a common employee at Makati, i realized that she (the employee being interviewed) was right... that those organizations and sectors who are heading these rallies right now are actually selfish and self ambitous. They don't give a damn whether foreign investors won't continue investing in our country (i don't think that the leaders of those groups are stupid enough not to know the implications of the rallies they are staging for these past days, and worse, they are holding it at Makati...) or they simply want to regain power over the administration of the country.

Yesterday, i was supposed to meet my sister in her office at Makati for a lunch date but due to the rally being held there at Paseo de Roxas, she cancelled our date for she was afraid that things might go worse. Truly, many activities and more importantly, business activities, are affected by these rallies being held. But i'm not saying that they should stop exercising their freedom of speech and expression (we're still in a democratic country after all). What i'm sick of is that all of us have this tendency to complain and grumble about many things (the government administration in this case..) but we are not doing our part! Those groups are complaining about the poor economy of the country but what if they just continue working hard instead of being there in the rallies? What if everyone would just be united, would have the same goal which is for our country's development? For me, Philippines would have been one of the richest countries of this world if not for the numerous political issues the countries had have. Why is there an opposition? Could the government be united for once??

It just saddens me... because i really love this country.

Loving One's Self

Yesterday, i realized how unfair and cruel i have been to myself. For all these years, i've always considered what others will think or say when i would do something. Well, can't blame myself actually for i am someone who really cares about people especially my family and friends. I don't want somebody being angry or having some rift with me. I really hate that feeling to the point that i usually do the first move of patching things up even if i have no fault at all. But that's not the issue (of whose fault is it..). What i'm trying to point out is i'm sick of being hurt by those people whom, ironically, are the closest to my heart. Honestly, i'm tired with them at this point... and maybe, God is teaching me the lesson of letting go...

But i'm not a quitter or something. Because i know, i've done my part (sometimes, including the others' parts actually) and it's not my problem anymore...

Don't also think that i don't care anymore with those people. It's just that i realized now that of all the people i loved and cared for, sarili ko pa nakalimutan ko...

And as Jesus had put it, He said "love your neighbors as yourself".

After 21 Years...

It has been 21 years and i can say that i have already lived life. I know, there's still a lot more ahead of me, more paths to take, more dreams to make.. but the two things that matter most are the fact that i have Him whom i know will always be there in every step i will take, and the friendship i have with the girl whom i will love for the rest of my life...

Special thanks to my Ate Peews who made my 21st birthday celebration possible, to my CS2K5 barkada whom i shared another happy time at Donnlyn's Depedida Swimming Party during the morning, to the Redeemed Youth who was there during my "surprise" birthday celebration, and to my Pax who made my day indeed great and memorable!

Most of all, i thank God for all the 21 years He has given me. I bring back all the glory to Him who is the main purpose of my existence. I may not have many "things" in life but He has definitely made me one of the richest people here in this world through my family and my friends...

"Live your life while you have it. Life is a splendid gift. There is nothing small about it."
- Florence Nightingale

"Life is not about how many breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away."
- An unknown breather

How Can I Not...?

How can i not stand up?
...if God's hands are always there to pick me up when i fall!
How can i not finish the race?
...if God's power is always upon me!
How can i not enjoy and live life to the fullest?
...if God's grace is ever present through the people around me!
How can i not continue dreaming and hoping?
...if God's plans and desires for me are beyond what i can only imagine!
How can i not be forever grateful?
...if God has already given me a very special gift, a gem so rare and precious...
...and tell me, how can i not fall in love with that gift, if God's love is just right there inside its heart?

She's the one, my pax... the greatest gift i ever had.

Ate Peews' Day!

today's my ate's birthday.. just came home from our province where we celebrated with some of our closest friends.. the food, the parada ng litson event, the festive atmosphere,, really had fun out there especially with my pax being there with us =)
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"Decide.. Decide.. Decide for yourself. Think it over and over again..."
- Lola Ponying (my everdearest lola.. upon saying goodbye to my pax..)

..i just had one of my most memorable and greatest nights ever.

it was the despidida party of my bestfriend. i came there with my pax vannie ('coz she was also invited by bhez..) and it was a night indeed. For the first time, she met my bestfriend and my super kulit barkada (though di kmi kumpleto that night..) and we all really had a great time..

..but what i would always remember was when pax and i were about to leave, my bhez thanked us for coming and she kissed pax.. i thought, the goodbye ceremonies had ended after that but pax felt she needed more as she came back to bhez, kissed and hugged her. i nearly cried that moment. hayy...

Yakapin mo ako,
Habang atin ang Gabi..